Today I went out and bought a front facing car seat, for my almost 1-year-old. As in 2 days she will be 1. I am shocked at how fast this year flew by. It has been the happiest year of my life.
I'm not going to say there isn't anything to complain about. I have felt very emotionally drained the past few weeks when most days a week I play the part of a single mother. If Juan is just there for 20 min of the time that Amelia is awake, that is all the relief I need. But we haven't even been getting that. And Juan, he feels it as much as I do, his days are just not the same when he doesn't see his little girl. And so I do complain and I need to be easier on myself. It's ok to have good and bad days.
And then there's all the good stuff. A lot of which I share on this blog. But there are so many daily things. Watching her taste peanut butter for the first time. Seeing her squeal with excitement when she sees other kids. Watching her stare at new people and show zero personality until she warms up to them. Teaching her to throw her hands up to show me she's all done or holding her ankle as she tries to dive off the bed. The excitement I feel about her sitting in a front facing carseat, I seriously am so excited to see her face, to see her little eyes shift from me to Juan as she's thinking, is this for real? I love everything about her. I love everything about being a mother.
I think of this year, 2 moves (I hate moving), living in my parent's basement, living off student loans and Juan's part-time job. It doesn't sound glamorous on paper, nothing I would get in line to sign up for. And yet I'll say it again, best year ever.
4 comments:
I can so relate to this! It has been a crazy year for us too with Nathan working full time and working on his dissertation and applying for jobs plus the twins. Yikes! But you are so right, it has also been the best year in so many ways and I wouldn't give it up for anything even on the bad days (and there most certainly are bad days!).
Oh and I've been on my own the last few days with the twins while Nathan is interviewing for a job and being a single parent is exhausting!!!
I know I say this almost every time I comment, but Amelia is seriously darling!!
One more day! I bet this is such a busy time of year. I can't imagine what it would be like. And I've also noticed that even when things are the most ideal, you just love it and look back and smile. Isn't it great how life works?!
Oh my goodness, one year old!! This is a great post, and I think you guys are an awesome little family! :)
Our sweet little one year old! I really can't believe it! It has been such a fun year. She's just so adorable and so full of life. I can't wait to celebrate tomorrow!
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